Wednesday, 20 April 2011

18 years...





.. So today's blog is going to be dedicated to some special guys who mean alot to me. I don't care if people judge me for blogging about them, because honestly... non of you have walked a day in my shoes :)

So today is the Backstreet Boys 18th Birthday/anniversary. 18 years... thats crazy! There's not many bands that can say they have been together that long. Everyone on twitter and facebook have been sharing short stories about the band and trying to get them trending worldwide. I've shared one.. mainly how long Ive been a fan, but i thought I'd elaborate more lol

I don't remember the date, or even where i was when i became a backstreet boy fan, unlike alot of fans who can. I remember the year though. It was 1995. I was still deeply hurt by my beloved Take That boys splitting, and had vowed never to like another boyband ever again when i heard We've Got It Goin On. Pretty sure it was on the radio. I remember hearing the guys name (backstreet boys) and thats all i knew.

However i do remember the date i realised i was in love with Nick Carter (HAHAH) but thats a whole other story (psstttt July 25th 1996) haha!

I was one of those fans who loved the music before i knew who they were. I actually miss the days where music used to be like that. It wasn't about what they looked like, or even their names. Quit Playin Games will always be one of my all time favourite songs. I absolutely ADORE how Brian sounds on it. I fell in love with his voice loooong before i knew who was who.

Then you skip from 1995, to 2005. I had been a fan for ten years before i ever met them and saw them in concert. Total dream come true, and ever since then it has only gotten better.

I didn't want to drag this blog post out on how much i adore them etc... because words really can't describe it. They had gotten me through some dead tough times, gotten me out of some dark dark places and given me some of the best friends i can ever ask for. They continue to make me smile, bring out awesome music and remain the humble, down to earth guys they have always been.

Here's to another 18 amazing years <3 Lisa, a fan for 16 years.

Here's some pictures of mine i want to share. Enjoy.

#Click on pics to see them in full.



























Wednesday, 6 April 2011

Sun is Shining, Weather is sweet....



So i took this picture an hour or so ago after I'd gotten home from work and decided that i was going to park myself on a garden chair in my back garden and catch some rays.

I lasted about 15 minutes before coming inside, only to find I had heat rash. Heat rash... in APRIL! Crazy!! I guess with how the weather changes from cold to hot lately its just messing with me.

My plan had been to fall asleep in the sunshine and wake up golden brown. pffft like that would ever happen.

Talking of sleep, or lack of, my insonmia is killing me right now. I'm on hour 27 of being awake. I'm not counting the doze i had in the middle of the night. Considering it didn't last more than half hour that's not ever going to be classed as sleeping lol. I so need to book an appointment at the doc. Thing is i really don't trust myself with sleeping tablets. I don't want to take them and rely on them. I'm just weird when it comes to meds. I'd rather not take them if theres a more natural way of curing it.

But at least i havent been totally bored whilst i can't sleep. I've gotten totally hooked on Blue Bloods! Like Unhealthily lol. I'm actually glad our cable don't get Sky Atlantic, for downloading it and watching it all in one go works out SO much better. I've so got a little Donnie Wahlberg crush on the go!

Once I've caught up with that i need to find Broadwalk Empire. Now i know I'm gonna love that as well.

Well i hope everyone in the UK is enjoying the heatwave and sunshine. Imma go immerse myself in some Donnie Wahlberg. Laters.

Monday, 4 April 2011

100 Facts About Me Cont...

So I never got round to finishing my 100 facts post. Rather than add to the end of it, i thought i'd make a follow on blog post. To read the facts before click here

76. I can't touch my toes because my hamstring muscles are too short for my legs.

77. Blue is my favourite colour.

78. I love cow print patterns.

79. Everytime i go to mcdonalds i order the same thing. Double Cheese Burger, fries and a cola. No ice.

80. I love to cook.

81. I've always wanted a pug. If i had one I'd name it Oscar.

82. Facebook annoys the crap out of me. I only keep it so i can stay in touch with my family and good friends. I've pretty much blocked everyone apart from those i trust seeing my statuses and info because I'm fed up with people chatting shit and being nosy.

83. I have a whole list of places i want to visit in the world. Starting with Australia. I NEED to see my family over there.

84. The O2 Arena in London AMAZES me. It's my favourite concert venue on the planet. The vibe you get when being surrounded by 22,000 people all singing along at the same time is out of this world.

85. I've kept a journal since i was 8 years old.

86. Nothing beats walking through Hyde Park on a summers afternoon/evening, and on a cold winters day.

87. I love proving people wrong.

88. I went on the London Eye six times in one year. It never gets old.

89. Insomnia is the bane of my life.

90. I don't get the fuss with Charlie Sheen. I think he seriously needs help and people shouldnt buy into his issues. It just encourages him more.

91. I love Dolphins. I was lucky to swim with them back in 2007. It was so amazing i cried afterwards.

92. I'm a rollercoaster junkie. The faster and crazier the better.

93. Me and my girls were features on a blog for a NYC resturant Fresh and Co. Click here

94. I have a cheque that my dad wrote for my mum back in '83 for 1 billion pounds. I so wish i could cash it haha

95. I'm the oldest grandchild on both sides of the family.

96. I used to use IMing programmes all the time, but now they just bore me. I'd im gonna talk to someone, I'll do it over the phone or through text.

97. I still have all the vhs videos from when i used to tape my favourite music videos and tv shows from back in the day. I think i have all of California Dreams on tape somewhere. (Please someone remember that show! haha)

98. Chinese food is my weakness.

99. I'm a total waterbaby. I could swim forever if i was allowed.

100. Even though alot of things get me down, i generally am a happy person.

Sunday, 3 April 2011

The "I Hate.." Post.

I'm having one of those days where I'm angry at the world, angry at myself and angry at the man upstairs.

Why?

It's Mother's Day, and for some reason this years is affecting me 100 times worse than it has done since my mum died. Why, I don't know? Surely the more time passes the more I should just be used to the fact my mum isn't around anymore. Apparently not. For I quite literally feel heartbroken. Seeing post after post on my Facebook and Twitter on everyone wishing their mums a happy day and dammit, I'm jealous. Completely and utterly jealous.

It killed me waking up and not having that excited bubbly feeling in my tummy like I used to have when giving my mum her card and presents. I used to spoil my mum. She deserved it, having me as a pain in the arse daughter, not to mention being so ill. I used to love shopping for Mother's Day. Buying her pretty flowers, A cute card and a really silly present that I know only she would appreciate. Who can I treat like that now?

It's just one of many things I'm hating today.

I hate that my mum got taken away from me.

I hate that my nan did too.

I hate that I'm broke.

I hate that i don't feel as carefree as I used to.

I hate the people who don't understand me and abandoned me when I needed them most.

I hate that the majority of my family don't care.

I hate that my life plan never went to plan.

I hate that in a month i was be 26 with nothing to show for it.

I hate that all the people that matter to me live too far away.


But you see, the funny thing with hating alot of things.. is that it's made me appreciate what i do have.

I love the fact that even if he annoys the shit out of me my brother has my back.

I love that the friends that stuck with me GET me. I love you guys so much. Words can't express how if I could give you all the world I would.

I love that for more people they don't even have to see me, talk to me or anything to know when I need them. The amount of texts I woke up to this morning proved that. I love you all.

I love that my dog knows when I'm sad. Sounds silly, but she hasn't left my side all day and everytime i get up she follows me. Unconditional love gives me warm fuzzies.

And even though all the people that mean alot to me live far away I love that they keep in touch with me more than people who live locally. Sure i have friends here who are totally amazing, but some really don't bother, and to be honest aren't special compared to those who mean alot to me.

Ok so the Love's really don't outweigh the Hates today. That's ok, because tomorrow will be a new day, and with a new day comes a new Lisa.

A Lisa who is allowed to wipe the smile off her face for a day, stay in bed and wallow. I'm only human afterall.

So sorry to those whom have witnessed my mopey down self on twitter today. I promise normal service tomorrow.

Friday, 25 March 2011

100 Facts About Me.

So on Twitter there has been a trending topic that quite a few of my friends have been taking part in the past few days. 100 Facts About Me.

It got me wondering if i can indeed some up with 100 different facts about myself. I was tempted to start it on Twitter like everyone else, but then knowing me I would end up repeating myself a dozen times as i tend to forget things I've written before.

So i decided to do it on here on my blog. I'll won't be able to complete it all in one hit, So when i remember something, or think something up I'll update this post. I'll add some pictures if i refer to anything as well. Gives a better visual :)

1. I love Music. I live for Music.

2. I'm addicted to my iPhone. Like really addicted. lol

3. I pretty much know i was born into the wrong country. I meant for hotter, calmer, sunnier climates.

4. I was born premature, and weighed 4 pounds 6 ounces. I was so small my parents had to buy dolls clothes for me to wear, and back in them days they didn't have small nappies (diapers) either so they looked completely oversized on me.


5. Age 4 i went deaf due to a bad ear infection and scarring to my ear drums. My hearing still isnt all that, i only got 50% of my hearing back. I'm sure i have less than that now.

6. I've been a Backstreet Boys fan since i was 10 years old. That's going on 16 years now and over half my life. Damn.

7. I cry really easily. Especially at sappy storylines in TV shows or movies, or even commercials.

8. I want to live in Disney World. The way i feel when i visit those parks is something i wish i could feel every day. Young and carefree.

9. I wish i could do more for all the places in the world that are in trouble.

10. I've only worn heels twice since i was 17.

11. I have a severe fear of vomiting, and anything that goes with it.

12. As a child i used to tan golden brown. As an adult i can barely be out in the sunshine without turning bright red. Me no likey.

13. I'm part British Part Maltese. Most of my family live in Malta. I take after my mums side, which is why I look nothing like my dads side of the family.

14. My mum died when i was 22, leaving me as a guardian for my brother who hadn't long turned 18 and was still in school.

15. I love to travel. There's no place i don't want to go.

16. When i was 11 i got thrown off and trampled on by a horse and stepped on by a donkey all in the same week.

17. When people first meet me i come across as shy and quiet, but once you get to know me I can be quite loud and never stop talking haha.

18. I'm a sucker for blue eyes.

19. I was 6months old when i had my first surgery.

20. I never broke a bone until i was 23, and it was my pinky toe.

21. I dislocated all my toes in 2003.

22. I've never vomited from drinking, but I've been damn near close to it.

24. I'm deadly scared of spiders.

25. I've always wanted to go to Australia and meet my family.

26. I would love to work as a roadie on a tour.

27. I've only had short hair three times in my life. My hairs too thick to be real short.

28. I know i have SAD syndrome. In the winter all i want to do is hide in my bed, yet in the summer as soon as the sun pours through the windows I'm up.

29. I miss the life i used to have, but apart from one thing i wouldn't change any decisions i've made.

30. I can drive a car, but have never taken my test.

31. I love the smell of freshly cut grass, but it always sets my allergies off.

32. I'm allaregic to bananas.

33. I was called for Dury Duty when I was 21.

34. I took part in every school production we had when in middle school, and was a part of the school choir. I even had a solo in a show once.

35. Me and a friend once taught our PE class the dance to Backstreets Back.

36. I used to write stories and scripts all the time as a kid, and even go as far as recording them on to tape so my brother and cousin could "Rehearse lines"

37. I took drum lessons as school as a teen.

38. Our girls PE class were actually banned from playing Basketball at school because we were too violent.

39. I used to be goal shooter on the girls netball team because i could make the hoop every time.

40. My thumbs and big toes are double jointed.

41. I love to write.

42. If my life plan had gone right, i would be living in Florida right now.

43. The little things annoy me, and i hate that they do that lol.

45. I cried my eyes out when Michael Jackson died. I still sometimes cry over his death, because he was a big inspiration to me growing up and i really do miss him.

46. I LOVE reading books. I have a bookshelf full of them in my bedroom.

47. My dvd and cd collection is HUGE!

48. I have a tendency to go through Laptops like anything. I've had three in the past five years, the first two never lasting more than a year. The newest one has died on me as well.

49. I have friends all over the world. Some I've never met but i aim to one day.

50. Earthquakes, Tornadoes and any natural disaster or weather really interest me. I would love to be a storm chaser.

51. After watching Jurassic Park as a kid I'd decided i wanted to find dinosaur bones.

52. I'm addicted to cheese.

53. I recently stopped chasing after friends as i would constantly get let down or hurt. As a result i found out who my real friends were and who were pretty much lying to keep me around for whatever reason. Just want to say a big i love you to the friends who stuck around, and a big thank you to those who didn't. Because it pretty much showed me who was wrong all along.

54. I was severely bullied in school, and as a result my mum nearly got sent to prison because i wouldn't go. Now i see the people who used to bully me and laugh, because i clearly got the last laugh.

55. I've never got the whole point of being jealous. If you spend your time obsessing over something/someone because they have something you want then i feel sorry for you. If you want something so bad you should aim for it.

56. I can hold a grudge. If someone hurts me, I'll never forget, or trust you again.

57. I have a sibling I'm not supposed to know about *cough*

58. I have an overactive imagination. It amuses me lol

59. I'm really.. really sarcastic alot of the time. Sometimes it bites me in the ass, most times it makes people laugh.

60. I love photography! I am ALWAYS taking pictures. I've owned my iphone since October and have nearly 1000 pictures on it, and own at least 1o memory cards for my Digital camera.

61. My fave TV is most definitely Friends. I own them all on DVD and even though I've seen them hundreds of times I can never get enough of it.

62. I got pictures by paparazzi with Orlando Bloom.

63. One day i want to live in New York City. I LOVE IT THERE!

64. I've never smoked a cigarette.

65. I wish i could say I've never done drugs. :(

66. I'm obsessed with programmes like CSI and Criminal Minds. I want to be a forensics agent.

67. I'm addicted to Mountain Dew, but its hard to find here in the UK.

68. Dentists scare me.

69. I collect handbags/purses. I'm obsessed.

70. I'm VERY impatient. I want things now, and whine when i can't LOL

71. I wish i was fluent in another language.

72. I never used to like cake until i met Kav. Now i LOVE cake.

73. I taught myself how to french braid when i was 7

74. I love to do colouring in, painting and drawing. It relaxes me.

75. I can't stand Angelina Jolie. As nice as it is that she adopts these kids and whatever, she's still a bitch who broke up a marriage and no where near a saint as people paint her to be.

More to be added soon.

Monday, 14 March 2011

Thoughts on Japan...

My heart breaks seeing all the news reports and articles on Japan. Seeing how towns were just swept away in mere minutes, and how people were stranded, stuck on higher ground with no where to go.

And then i think about those poor people who didn't make it to a safer place on time. Those separated from their families, not even knowing if they made it somewhere safe or not.

Tragedies always put life into prospective for people. When you see how bad one nation have it, you realise that even though you have it bad, it's not quite as bad as the other side.

I'll admit i haven't watched the news quite as much as most people have. Some might call it selfish, or uncaring. But they are wrong. I care. ALOT. It affects me alot seeing it all. When it first was first broadcast and everyone was talking about it on Twitter i felt sick. Of course then it was just the earthquake, which was huge in scale anyways. But then the tsunami hit and had to make it worse. I was reluctant to put the tv on knowing I'd get sucked in watching it all day and end up in pieces. Of course I've ended up in pieces anyways. I feel torn. I want to help them in anyway i can. If i could afford to get out there somehow, i would. Why? Because no one in this world deserves a disaster like that. Because now I'm sat here, torn between differences of opinion and feel like I'm being made to feel guilty.

I'll admit right away, i haven't donated to Japan. I physically CAN'T. I'm broke beyond my wildest dreams living on one meal a day because thats all i can afford. Yet if i could send them my one meal, if it would help just that one person to have a decent meal a day i would. But i can't.

So then i start thinking. Sure i can't afford to give a donation, but i can sure try get others who can to donate. I know exactly what to do in order to raise the money. I've helped to it before, and it worked. I will need work on my side (which i will work on) but it will happen, and my guilt will be restored somewhat knowing i can help raise money for those who need it.

There are other issues with everything thats happened that gets to me as well. The backlash that comes with high expectations for celebs to donate, or raise awareness and the differences in opinion that go with it.

Some might say celebs should raise the awareness, urge people to donate and help. While i do think thats a good way of getting donations, it irritates me slightly. Could someone be that heartless that they would watch the news all day, see donation adverts on their tv screens, yet will only donate if their fave celebrity tells them too? Are there people in the world who are like that? Yes. There are. It saddens me that people would be so self centred that they would only do something if a celebrity told them to. What happened to freedom of your own mind? Thinking for yourself. Sure you would feel good afterwards, but would that be because you helped a country in need, or because you did what your fave celeb told you to do.

And thats were difference of opinion comes in. I won't fight someones opinion if people think thats ok for people to only donate if their fave celebs tell them too, because thats their opinion. I think its wrong, yes, but that too is my opinion. Don't slander me because i don't agree with you.

Which is why i decided to leave twitter for today. too much controversial shit is going down all because of a difference of opinion. I'm not going to argue with friends over that. It's not worth it. We weren't all raised on this planet to think the same. I don't expect everyone to agree with me, i KNOW I'll probably piss people off with this last part of my blog. I apologise, but thats not what i mean to do. And those who know me will know this.

So I'll leave you with the various ways you can donate and help Japan. I urge you to do it. If you can't, be like me and find another way to help.

British Red Cross - http://www.redcross.org.uk/japantsunami/?approachcode=68816_googlePAD10JpTs&gclid=CIKLucKjzqcCFQoa4Qod2G3HDQ

Save The Children - https://www.savethechildren.org.uk/secure/51_13134.htm?sourcecode=A11038004&formref=54heading=Japan%20Emergency%20Appeal&target=Japan&amounts=25,50,100,300

And a site with more charities you can donate to for Japan - http://news.yahoo.com/s/yblog_newsroom/20110311/wl_yblog_newsroom/japan-earthquake-and-tsunami-how-to-help

Thursday, 10 March 2011

Remember the BSB phone promo....

... of 2007? HAHA well i was bored and remembered I'd blogged about it back then on my Myspace. Well i found them and thought I'd share them here because honestly... the funniest shit ever haha.

Enjoy...

*****

Monday, August 13, 2007

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Just spoke to Nick and Howie on the phone!!!
Current mood: ecstatic

Oh, My Friggin god!!!! Im gonna post as much as i remember here cos its like a bluuuur!!

So yea....was tryin Nick and Howie's phone and Brian and AJs phone or about 3 hrs...still cant get through on Brian and Ajs phone BUT anyways,,,heres what i remember lol

So Howie answers the phone in a British accent...which threw me off cos obv im British, and he was chattin away in the accent just being a goof and then he asks me who i think this is and i actually had no clue as to whether it was Howie or Nick, so i guess Nick and he was like "nooooo" so obv it was Howie.
So i told him id been trying to call for 3 hrs and he was amazed LOL
Then he asked if i'd called AJ and Brian and i said i hadnt been able to get through yet and i said everyone was trying and couldnt get through to both of the phones and he was like "shit, well lucky you!" and that had me laughing cos omg Howie said shit bahahaha
He never asked where i was from cos he already knew i was British cos of my accent and laughed cos of how he answered the phone and asked what part i was from..i told him and he was like "I love London!"
So yea he asked where I got hold of the number - to which i replied livedaily..and he was like ooooh good source and i laughed LOL.
The he was like "yuk" and i asked him if he was ok and he said "Nick just spit on me.....so immature" and laughed.

I cant remember if anything else happened after that, if i do ill add it later

So then he asked me if i wanted to speak to Nick...obv i said yes so he told me to take care and passed the fone to Nick.

Now heres where it gets funny LOL

Nick took the fone and was like "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH Howie shut the baby up, man that kid is so noisy AAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAH"
At this point i was just cracking up LOL...., then he stopped the baby crying and asked me if i knew Howie had just given birth!!
And i totally played along and was like "No, wow he kept that quiet" and Nick giggle and did a few more "aaaahs" and then was like "uuuuugggggggghhhh" and i asked him if he was ok, he made the noise again then burped down the phone! I was like "Nice, did you eat too much?" (cos they had just had lunch) and and he was like "Yeaa...and now i need to SHIT!!" and i died laughing LMFAOOO!!!
Then he went really quiet and was like (wait for it LMAO) "You sound really beautiful, you know that?" And i was taken back abit LOL...but thanked him and i could feel myself blushing like mad LMAOO...man he made my legs go like jelly with the voice he was talking to me with.
And then he went back to being goofy sayin he had to go (In a British accent...Of course!) and i said bye and he was like "BYYYYYEEEEEE" screaming down the fone and before he hung up he was all giggling!!!

So yea im soooooooo hyper right now, all i need to do now is get Brian and AJ!!!

So yea i hope all you other fans get through to the boys...cos its sooooo worth it!!!

Love Lisa xxxxx

ps sorry if theres any typos or it dont make any sense...im just too high on bsb right now haha


PPS - JUST REMEMBERED I ASKED HOWIE HOW THE ALBUM WAS, HE SAID IT WAS DONE AND THEN UMM AND AAR ABOUT WHEN IT WAS RELEASED...SOMEONE IN THE BACKGROUND HAD TO REMIND HIM HAHAHA!!!
sorry bout caps but thats an edit cos i just remembered lol

Spoke to Howie/kinda sorta maybe hung up on Nick bahaha
Current mood: bouncy
Category: Music

Yea so i lost all kinds of guts in callin the guys, but then decided to just now and yea...Howie answered...it went something like...

Howie - Howie will answer the phone in 10, 9, 8, 7 , 6..........hello? Who's that?
Me - Hello? (I couldnt hear him after the countin lol)
Howie - Hello, whos that?
me - Hiya, Its Lisa
Howie - Hey Lisa its Howie, How ya doin?
Me, Im good thanks, you?
Howie - Im doing great
me - Congratulations on your engagement!
Howie - Awwwww thanks (going all shy LMAO)
me - Thats ok
Howie - So hows the weather in the UK? (Guess he knew already - again with the accent LMFAO)
Me - Its freeeeezin cold and rainy
Howie - Freezin! Its 105 degreees here today!! We're in Louisiana right now and its all (starts a ding ding song LMAO and describing Lousianna to me like its hick country and they talks sloooow)
Me - (laughing) I wish we had hot weather here
Howie - Awww, well hey listen im getting chucked off the phone here so it was great talking to you Lisa
Me - You too Howie
Howie - Oh yea and Nick says hi
Nick - HIIIIIII (in the background)
Me - Hey Nick! (Nick giggling in the background)
Howie - Ok well take care bye
Me - Byee

I never hung up straight away, i was kinda waiting for them too but it didnt seem as if they would so i hung up....and now its making me think that maybe Howie was passing the phone to Nick lmfaoooooooooooo

Oh well i spoke to Howieeee *dances* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

And yea...still wanna talk to Bri and Aj...but im soo scaaaared!

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