Thoughts?

So I've had a few thoughts and questions go through my mind the past few days, and most are questions i will probably never get answers to, but if i was to get answers that would be great lol.
Like for instance...friends. Some friends come and go, and some stick like glue. Some never change and are just the same down to earth friendly people ever. I'm lucky to have the majority of my friends be like that. But then you come across the odd few who start off like that, and slowly change. Or is it them changing or is it me? Since my mum died I've lost a few friends. Some just couldn't understand how to deal with me afterwards, and some claim i changed, which i obviously did.

When you lose your main parent is does change you. It changes everything from your outlook on life to daily lifestyle and everything. I've been told I've handled it very well. I'm not sure how I've handled it. I mean theres no handbook to tell me what to do, where to start but I'm still standing on my own two feet. I'm not depending on anyone and I'm not sponging off the government.

But back to the friends thing. I'm glad that the few friends i lost are gone. I see how they act now and how immature they are and it makes me glad to know I'm not going down that route.
And then theres the other friends. I've grown close to alot of peoeple in the past 2 years, and I'm so thankful for how they have helped me out. Words can't even express how honoured i feel to have them in my life. These past 2 months have been amazing because of some special friends. They know who they are, and I'm so happy to know that i will have them no matter what.
As for other friendships...some have felt strained, some still do. I'm not sure where they are heading. Some feel very one sided and others i feel ok with how they are going. Those people have my wall infront of them. I can't confide in them, i can't talk to them like i can my other friends. I used to be able to, but times change. Things happen that break my trust. I guess that makes them not sound like friends, but theres always that part of me that wants the friendship to be there always, especially when we were close at one point.

Well enough about that subject. I do feel kinda better knowing i got that out. I know that as i have this blog public that people will read. People might try and guess if I'm talking about them but I'm not naming names. I'm not singling people out as its not fair on them, i just hope people can try see things from me better when it comes to friendships.

I'd best scoot now anyways, got my lil copycat next to me copying every move i do on her toy laptop and yea....need to do some entertaining. Plus the X factor finale is on and i need to vote for Joe.

Toodles!