18 years...

.. So today's blog is going to be dedicated to some special guys who mean alot to me. I don't care if people judge me for blogging about them, because honestly... non of you have walked a day in my shoes :)

So today is the Backstreet Boys 18th Birthday/anniversary. 18 years... thats crazy! There's not many bands that can say they have been together that long. Everyone on twitter and facebook have been sharing short stories about the band and trying to get them trending worldwide. I've shared one.. mainly how long Ive been a fan, but i thought I'd elaborate more lol

I don't remember the date, or even where i was when i became a backstreet boy fan, unlike alot of fans who can. I remember the year though. It was 1995. I was still deeply hurt by my beloved Take That boys splitting, and had vowed never to like another boyband ever again when i heard We've Got It Goin On. Pretty sure it was on the radio. I remember hearing the guys name (backstreet boys) and thats all i knew.

However i do remember the date i realised i was in love with Nick Carter (HAHAH) but thats a whole other story (psstttt July 25th 1996) haha!

I was one of those fans who loved the music before i knew who they were. I actually miss the days where music used to be like that. It wasn't about what they looked like, or even their names. Quit Playin Games will always be one of my all time favourite songs. I absolutely ADORE how Brian sounds on it. I fell in love with his voice loooong before i knew who was who.

Then you skip from 1995, to 2005. I had been a fan for ten years before i ever met them and saw them in concert. Total dream come true, and ever since then it has only gotten better.

I didn't want to drag this blog post out on how much i adore them etc... because words really can't describe it. They had gotten me through some dead tough times, gotten me out of some dark dark places and given me some of the best friends i can ever ask for. They continue to make me smile, bring out awesome music and remain the humble, down to earth guys they have always been.

Here's to another 18 amazing years <3 Lisa, a fan for 16 years.

Here's some pictures of mine i want to share. Enjoy.

#Click on pics to see them in full.

Sun is Shining, Weather is sweet....

So i took this picture an hour or so ago after I'd gotten home from work and decided that i was going to park myself on a garden chair in my back garden and catch some rays.

I lasted about 15 minutes before coming inside, only to find I had heat rash. Heat rash... in APRIL! Crazy!! I guess with how the weather changes from cold to hot lately its just messing with me.

My plan had been to fall asleep in the sunshine and wake up golden brown. pffft like that would ever happen.

Talking of sleep, or lack of, my insonmia is killing me right now. I'm on hour 27 of being awake. I'm not counting the doze i had in the middle of the night. Considering it didn't last more than half hour that's not ever going to be classed as sleeping lol. I so need to book an appointment at the doc. Thing is i really don't trust myself with sleeping tablets. I don't want to take them and rely on them. I'm just weird when it comes to meds. I'd rather not take them if theres a more natural way of curing it.

But at least i havent been totally bored whilst i can't sleep. I've gotten totally hooked on Blue Bloods! Like Unhealthily lol. I'm actually glad our cable don't get Sky Atlantic, for downloading it and watching it all in one go works out SO much better. I've so got a little Donnie Wahlberg crush on the go!

Once I've caught up with that i need to find Broadwalk Empire. Now i know I'm gonna love that as well.

Well i hope everyone in the UK is enjoying the heatwave and sunshine. Imma go immerse myself in some Donnie Wahlberg. Laters.

100 Facts About Me Cont...

So I never got round to finishing my 100 facts post. Rather than add to the end of it, i thought i'd make a follow on blog post. To read the facts before click here

76. I can't touch my toes because my hamstring muscles are too short for my legs.

77. Blue is my favourite colour.

78. I love cow print patterns.

79. Everytime i go to mcdonalds i order the same thing. Double Cheese Burger, fries and a cola. No ice.

80. I love to cook.

81. I've always wanted a pug. If i had one I'd name it Oscar.

82. Facebook annoys the crap out of me. I only keep it so i can stay in touch with my family and good friends. I've pretty much blocked everyone apart from those i trust seeing my statuses and info because I'm fed up with people chatting shit and being nosy.

83. I have a whole list of places i want to visit in the world. Starting with Australia. I NEED to see my family over there.

84. The O2 Arena in London AMAZES me. It's my favourite concert venue on the planet. The vibe you get when being surrounded by 22,000 people all singing along at the same time is out of this world.

85. I've kept a journal since i was 8 years old.

86. Nothing beats walking through Hyde Park on a summers afternoon/evening, and on a cold winters day.

87. I love proving people wrong.

88. I went on the London Eye six times in one year. It never gets old.

89. Insomnia is the bane of my life.

90. I don't get the fuss with Charlie Sheen. I think he seriously needs help and people shouldnt buy into his issues. It just encourages him more.

91. I love Dolphins. I was lucky to swim with them back in 2007. It was so amazing i cried afterwards.

92. I'm a rollercoaster junkie. The faster and crazier the better.

93. Me and my girls were features on a blog for a NYC resturant Fresh and Co. Click here

94. I have a cheque that my dad wrote for my mum back in '83 for 1 billion pounds. I so wish i could cash it haha

95. I'm the oldest grandchild on both sides of the family.

96. I used to use IMing programmes all the time, but now they just bore me. I'd im gonna talk to someone, I'll do it over the phone or through text.

97. I still have all the vhs videos from when i used to tape my favourite music videos and tv shows from back in the day. I think i have all of California Dreams on tape somewhere. (Please someone remember that show! haha)

98. Chinese food is my weakness.

99. I'm a total waterbaby. I could swim forever if i was allowed.

100. Even though alot of things get me down, i generally am a happy person.

The "I Hate.." Post.

I'm having one of those days where I'm angry at the world, angry at myself and angry at the man upstairs.

Why?

It's Mother's Day, and for some reason this years is affecting me 100 times worse than it has done since my mum died. Why, I don't know? Surely the more time passes the more I should just be used to the fact my mum isn't around anymore. Apparently not. For I quite literally feel heartbroken. Seeing post after post on my Facebook and Twitter on everyone wishing their mums a happy day and dammit, I'm jealous. Completely and utterly jealous.

It killed me waking up and not having that excited bubbly feeling in my tummy like I used to have when giving my mum her card and presents. I used to spoil my mum. She deserved it, having me as a pain in the arse daughter, not to mention being so ill. I used to love shopping for Mother's Day. Buying her pretty flowers, A cute card and a really silly present that I know only she would appreciate. Who can I treat like that now?

It's just one of many things I'm hating today.

I hate that my mum got taken away from me.

I hate that my nan did too.

I hate that I'm broke.

I hate that i don't feel as carefree as I used to.

I hate the people who don't understand me and abandoned me when I needed them most.

I hate that the majority of my family don't care.

I hate that my life plan never went to plan.

I hate that in a month i was be 26 with nothing to show for it.

I hate that all the people that matter to me live too far away.


But you see, the funny thing with hating alot of things.. is that it's made me appreciate what i do have.

I love the fact that even if he annoys the shit out of me my brother has my back.

I love that the friends that stuck with me GET me. I love you guys so much. Words can't express how if I could give you all the world I would.

I love that for more people they don't even have to see me, talk to me or anything to know when I need them. The amount of texts I woke up to this morning proved that. I love you all.

I love that my dog knows when I'm sad. Sounds silly, but she hasn't left my side all day and everytime i get up she follows me. Unconditional love gives me warm fuzzies.

And even though all the people that mean alot to me live far away I love that they keep in touch with me more than people who live locally. Sure i have friends here who are totally amazing, but some really don't bother, and to be honest aren't special compared to those who mean alot to me.

Ok so the Love's really don't outweigh the Hates today. That's ok, because tomorrow will be a new day, and with a new day comes a new Lisa.

A Lisa who is allowed to wipe the smile off her face for a day, stay in bed and wallow. I'm only human afterall.

So sorry to those whom have witnessed my mopey down self on twitter today. I promise normal service tomorrow.